I can certianly understand how you feel. My father will be gone 5 years October 24. At times it feels like he died only yesterday. Then other days I can't beleive so much time has passed. I just always remind myself that he is here, though those that love him. And I believe, his soul is looking out for me. It brings me peace and comfort.
Just know that someone else understands your pain.
Hi Sin, sorry for your loss. I lost my mum when I was 13, and can understand what you are saying about how, despite the years, it doesn't get easier. I found the pain and feeling of loss changed over the years, to now it is when I have a high moment in my life there is a wee touch of sadness as my mum isn't with me in person, but she is forever in my heart and that makes it bearable. I hope you find peace.
Big hugs to you Sinfully. My mom passed 2 years ago and I feel the very same as you. Not sure it ever is "ok". Even tho she was here for "important" events in my life, the hardest part for me is never being able to go home again, get a hug, laugh and do everyday things together. The youngest of 8 kids, she always called me "the baby", and I guess I will always be her baby. Take care girl.