I know, I know...Not me at all....BUT...I need to ask a question, that might turn into a few questions!!!
Was I ever that spiritual? or that relgious? I guess not, but I did believe there was something after death, I have seen it in my patients, that something happens, as they are dying, or when they die,
There is some kinda peace? I always took comfort in that, when I lost someone very very special to me.
BUT...I am struggling at the moment, anyone who has read my blog, or my diary as I am callin it, will know.
I am nursing a 4 year old little girl, who is the sweetest, most adorable little girl ever.
She has a loving family, Mum and Dad adore her, and there is a wee baby on the way, to complete this perfect family.
YET....She is dying.
WHY is this so?
This young girl, is really making me question my job, but more importantly, its questioning faith, and god and all the bits that go with it?
How on earth can this happen?
Who lets this wee girl die?
I felt a need to reply. No one will ever know why these things happen. Everyone has different beliefs. That's what makes this such a special world. My belief is that this little girl is an old soul. And her job is to make others aware. Of love, humility, humanity, grief, pain, sorrow, acceptance, and faith. Her Karma is to make others aware of their Karma. How others deal with her death is how they will fulfill their Karma. For better or worse. My prayers are with you all. Peace.
Hey Bubs, that's a really tough situation .... my heart goes out to the girl, the family and to you and everyone else caring for the poor child.
It certainly throws open so many questions and I certainly don't have the answers to any of them. I'll bet the one coping with it best is the child herself - it never ceases to amaze me how well kids take things in their stride and deal with them.
I wish everyone involved the strength and courage to cope with such a tragic situation, and I wish there was more I could say...
Bubs... I know how hard it is... we deal with the same thing here at the hospice I work at. I look at it like this... we cannot see this precious little girl's future, but God can. He sees the pain and misery her little body will experience so He chooses to take her to spare her the pain and suffering. No, we cannot understand it but we just have to believe that something good will come of it. We recently had a young girl pass away about 6 months ago and her nurse had the same questions that you have... that is until the day this precious little girl looked up at her mommy and touched her face and said, "Mommy, don't be sad. God just needs me to come play with the other kids in heaven." Her mom didn't think too much about it until about 2 days before she passed she looked up at her mom and told her that she will take care of her baby sister when she gets to heaven. Her mom had never really come to terms with a miscarriage the year before and this really helped her mom to heal from that loss. So even though we don't understand why God chooses to take someone at whatever age, we just have to believe that He knows what He is doing. My prayers are with you sweetie.
I don't have the answer, Bubs. I wish I did. I felt such rage and frustration because my father died when I was young. Now, he was not a perfect man, but he was a good father. And then, when I was in my teens, and had my Frost part time job, I had a co-worker whose father abused her in the worst most sickening sense of that term. I was angry on her behalf, angry that there was supposedly a god out there who allowed my father, a good man to die, but let some creep who abused his little girl to live.
I guess I don't have much of a point, other than to say, I know where you're coming from with that question.