Ok..no one has to respond..really.. just feel like writing my thoughts somewhere LOL

It's the 17th anniversary of my Fathers Death today, the 25th. Its weird.. it use to get easier as the yrs went on..because I felt I came to grips more and more with his passing, but..when I hit a certain age..it now becomes harder. Why? Because... I realize now..that he won't be here when I marry. He won't be here to walk me down the aisle, to see my first child. My brother is a new Father and I a new Aunt, Eva is only 4 weeks old..and the fact my Father wasnt here to see that..breaks my heart. As the yrs go by...it actually gets harder.. it seems so surreal..feels like only yesterday he left...well hopefully I can make it to the cemetery today... grrr.. anyways.. just venting...

Sorry to hear of your loss.

W.

Thank you all for your kind words..and my best wishes go out to all of you who have lost loved ones too.

One thing I find.. is with the passinog time you don't forget..rather just accept more. You accept the fact that no..they won't be returning...but you mourn more of the little things they will miss out on.

My heart goes out to you! I've lost both my parents, but it's been 25 years since I lost my mother. I still miss her... always will.

{{{HUGS}}} to you!

I am very sorry for you. You were too young to lose your father. My father is very ill right now and I can't help but think about what it will be like without him one day. You are in my prayers.

I sympathise with you. I lost my own father when I was 9, so I know what you mean when you say it hurts that his missed the birth of your nephew, etc.
*hugggggggs* I can't offer you pretty words, just my sympathy.

Oddly enough, I lost a dear friend of 15 years on this date 2 years ago. Many say time heals all wounds. As you attest to, it really doesn't.

I am fortunate to still have my father, my mother passing 2 years ago in Dec.

I sympathize with you and your pain.
Rest assured, your father is watching, and sharing in your joy.

I can certianly understand how you feel. My father will be gone 5 years October 24. At times it feels like he died only yesterday. Then other days I can't beleive so much time has passed. I just always remind myself that he is here, though those that love him. And I believe, his soul is looking out for me. It brings me peace and comfort.

Just know that someone else understands your pain.

Qt

Hi Sin, sorry for your loss. I lost my mum when I was 13, and can understand what you are saying about how, despite the years, it doesn't get easier. I found the pain and feeling of loss changed over the years, to now it is when I have a high moment in my life there is a wee touch of sadness as my mum isn't with me in person, but she is forever in my heart and that makes it bearable. I hope you find peace.
Dx

I pray God's peace and comfort will be with you today. I too will find myself in this position in the not too distant future and I cannot even begin to understand your pain. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Big hugs to you Sinfully. My mom passed 2 years ago and I feel the very same as you. Not sure it ever is "ok". Even tho she was here for "important" events in my life, the hardest part for me is never being able to go home again, get a hug, laugh and do everyday things together. The youngest of 8 kids, she always called me "the baby", and I guess I will always be her baby. Take care girl.