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Posted on Sun, Jun 11, 2006 16:55

I'm trying my best but I am getting more and more fustrated. I am tired and I am not as happy as I should be. I want to change so much of my life rite now but that would take money I don't have and cause more trouble before it all settles down. Its effecting my school grades, making me late for class (being tired is makeing me wake up late even though I set my clock), and it's making me appathetic twards work...(suppervisor is a pain the the ,the rules are getting dumber as time goes buy and they keep threatinging to change me to a diffrent shift despite the fact that they seid they work with peoples school scheaduals... why am I the exception?). Ugh! I need to get happy again... this so isn't me! I am the happy one that always laughs... but inside I feel like a loser whose life is getting away from her. Now I have to fix this... I thought I just got to the point in my life that I was happy and getting somewhere, becomeing someone... I thought I would be able to find someone and be a good girlfriend or more but how can I be that if I don't have my head on stait? I'm not even shure if my dreams of being a buisness person/fashion designer is the rite one for me anymore... especially the buisness person part, I haven't been doing well in my finaciall classes. I feel dumb but I know I'm not. But how am I suppost to support myself, be happy with what I do, and pay all my bills without a good paying career? What would/could I be if not a buisness/fashion person? What career can I get that I would like and would bring in a regular pay check? I don't know anymore and It is driving me crazy... I have to decide by next semester or I will be stuck with more buisness classes that I have to pay for. I wish I could just hide from my life but unfortunatly I'm to responcible and I know it wouldn't work anyway.


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Posted on Sun, Jun 11, 2006 21:15

hi curvy-seems to me is all u need is a little bit of reasurance to give youself a little bit of confidence to get youself out of the rut you are in(your mesage seems a bit negative agaist yourself).from my experiance of life (so far)is do what suits YOU!( yeah YOU!) you dont have to do what everyone else expects of you(unless thats what you want Really)maybe you dont have to follow the rules and be a really good girlrfiend to somebody(imagine that guy is a total!)you would be wasting yourself,my view in life is - follow your nose-when somethig feels right inside 99% of the it is right-dont go for something because you think its expected of you-do it cause you really wanna -and if it dont work out -dont beat yourself up ,cause life is all about making mistakes.its how we evolve -anyway thats my two cents, i apoligise if i have taken u up wrong damien


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Posted on Sun, Jun 11, 2006 19:52

Happiness is what you make it. It also has lots to do with where you look for it. Ask yourself what your focusing on? Is it the good and positive things in your life? Or the more negative and depressing things? We all are like multi-faceted diamonds in the rough. Some of our sides and shiny and smooth, while others are still being chisled away at or buffed by life until it too can shine. While those parts of us exist and we are constantly reminded they are there by the wear and tear they take upon our emotions... try to take a look at the finer sides that have not fallen away, but have simply been forgotten or thought of much to little. One day, when you least expect it... the perfect 'setting' for your diamond will appear. Until then, work on becomeing the finest jewel you can imagine and allow those tough times to buff you to perfection. *smile*


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