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Posted on Wed, Nov 21, 2007 23:51

It is Thanksgiving morning, wee in the morning, mind you. It's 2:46am, my time, and I am still up.


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Posted on Mon, Nov 26, 2007 01:20

Thanks guys. It's actually an older one, about 6 months old. But, I posted it anyway, because the hair is better than right now. I got a perm and its SUPER curly. I have to dry/straighten it every day, or I look like a poodle! I should have listened to the stylist when she told me the rods I wanted her to use were too small. But NOOOO, I said, go ahead, my hair is hard to take a perm...and look at me now! Almost too much curl to handle! But, hey. It's ok--I've had straight hair nearly all my life, and I'm sure it'll fall out soon enough. In the mean time, I'm gonna enjoy the bounce. And use OLD PICTURES!


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Posted on Sun, Nov 25, 2007 08:17

On the picture: ME THREE! Amy


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Posted on Sun, Nov 25, 2007 05:58

Re: smoosh write: Hi True, I love your new picture - just wanted to share......

ME TOO!! :)


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Posted on Sun, Nov 25, 2007 01:05

Well, I did go into work Thanksgiving night. I had a private duty assignment. I thought: "oh, well, maybe I can make this person feel a little better..." Her two children came in to see her. Can't tell you the last time I was jealous of a PSYCH patient! So, I went home-- straight to bed. A friend of mine had complete pity on me and practically forced me out of bed for a few hours last night. Good thing. I didn't think I could make myself get up, after this week. And then, she came over again today. Tonight, my best friend on earth called-- from Wisconsin. We talked for hours. It's so sad I didn't think to call her on Thanksgiving, because I was so wrapped up in my own little world of depression. We tend to forget others who may need us. Lucky for her, she went over to a friend's house for Thanksgiving. I still felt bad for not calling, and she felt bad for not calling me. It's a good thing I love her to pieces, and she does me, too! I made it through this week. I don't know about the next holiday, but I am eternally grateful that this one is OVER...


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Posted on Sat, Nov 24, 2007 19:36

Hi True, I love your new picture - just wanted to share......


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Posted on Sat, Nov 24, 2007 07:07

True do you have any idea what a huge difference you can make to those people who are too sick to be home and truly need your gifts of smiles, sense of humor,caring and attention at a time when they may be ready to give up.My father spent so much time in the hospital with nurses who didnt give a damn and could care less if he needed them.So those special people who do give a damn and care enough to help those sick and in need are the kind of people we need more of in this world.Believe me when I say that this depression will pass and all your good deeds will lead to your prayers being answered.Have faith,in yourself,in your good deeds,in god,and good things will come back to you many times over.You have so much to give to people True,one day someone special will see that and those prayers,wants, and desires will all be answered.Don't ever give up !!


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Posted on Thu, Nov 22, 2007 09:01

True, I'm in a similar position. My parents (my only close relatives who are nearby) decided at the last minute to visit my mom's brother for Thanksgiving. I was in charge of an archery shoot yesterday and couldn't leave until late. Mom didn't want to wait so POOF, I was on my own. I went to the city last night and got a few things (inc. oddly enough, a nice bottle of wine) and I am going to have a non traditional meal and book fest AFTER, that is, I go out in the 30 degree weather we are having and do chores. Not quite the drudgery you were looking forward to, but a big chunk out of the day. I feel just like you do as well. Hope keeps popping up in the face of a lot of disappointment. I suppose it has nothing better to do, lol. Stay strong, sister. Amy


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Posted on Thu, Nov 22, 2007 05:31

True - don't underestimate YOU. I and all those people whom you will be "a glorified babysitter" are very thankful for you. (I'm guessing you are a nurse and MY mom was just discharged again yesterday) Keep in mind what YOU mean to all those you'll help in your shift. YOUR smile will make someone's day. Think of all those in the hospital that also cannot be with their family. Your kids might not be with you today - but who says Thanksgiving HAS to be celebrated today? Consider celebrating it with your kids when they come home. And as for family - I have to tell you that MOST of my family are those I've CHOSEN rather than those that are blood relatives. We make our own families. And hang in there honey. A woman with as much to give as you have will NOT be alone forever. Someone out there is just waiting for you.


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Posted on Thu, Nov 22, 2007 04:22

True, I can understand where you are now. I was there after my separation many moons ago. My boys were young then 8 an 12. I lived close to my family and his, then ZAP nothing. I understand the hole that yearns to be filled. I could put all of the normal stuff to say, I remembered it did not make me feel better hours later. I can tell you I survived, maybe better for it. While you were working, taking care of those, as you said, less fortunate you were their thanksgiving hope for the day. Someone to help because they can't do it for themselves. They are thankful for you today. Maybe that can fill the hole for today. {{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}} Love ya, Natalie


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Posted on Thu, Nov 22, 2007 00:11

I am tired of all this. I am tired of all the crap people give you, while secretly only wanting the most basic of things from us. I have sincere hopes to meet a man that loves life, and chooses to celebrate every day... I'd LOVE a nice bottle of wine, or even champagne on Thanksgiving (but since I'm working, that's a moot point...). I'd love even more, to have someone to share it with. I don't think it will happen this year for Thanksgiving, but maybe by New Years or Valentine's Day, I will have met someone to celebrate good times with. These days, I am going on the "maybe's". It's been a really rough year, and from the looks of it, it will be a rough new year. But "Hope Springs Eternal..." I suppose I'm rambling here, but I wanted to share the "almost scrooged" mood I have been in for the last few days. However, I know when I go to work tonight, and see these truly ill people who do not have the opportunity ot do the things I am only WISHING I was doing, then maybe I will feel better. We'll see. Happy Thanksgiving to you all.


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Posted on Thu, Nov 22, 2007 00:11

I am going to be at work tonight, while everyone I know, including my children and my ex, will be celebrating Turkey Day. (Next year, they will be with me-- we alternate in the custody arrangement.) So, anyway, I'm a bit bummed I will be nursing people back to health, dumping their urine & feces, wiping rear-ends, changing linens, and all around, being a glorified baby-sitter. On the other hand, I am really trying to be grateful for the things in life that I know others find hard to come by: I have three great boys, and a really cute dog. (Really-- that's about it, right now. But, I'm working on it!) I didn't think it would be hard for me this year at the holidays, but it has turned out to be more taxing than I thought. I miss being around people. I have no family here-- only my children-- all of my blood relatives live out of state. Since separating, I've essentially been cut out of "his" family, but that was expected. I just didn't think I would want "more". As the season progresses (not just the holiday) I find myself wanting more and more to find someone I can spend time with. It has been so many years since I have held hands with someone and just felt "content" to be with them. The last several years have been shallow attempts at Holiday tradition. This year, I especially felt like I needed to make my OWN traditions. I have just felt at a loss as to what I should do. Maybe it was too soon for dramatic change? CONT'D...


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