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Posted on Mon, Oct 15, 2007 15:55

Here's a hypothetical image for you - who are the two of you? ************************************** When you look in the mirror, you see beyond the glass into a parallel world where you are greeted by identical twins who look just like you. One twin is imbued with all of your most admirable characteristics; the other is the proverbial "bad seed," and he or she possesses all of your undesirable characteristics. Give each individual a name, and then describe them in detail. Do not simply provide a boring list of physical attributes and mannerisms; instead, paint a vivid picture with your words that will convey to the reader each twin's appearance, behavior, attitudes, etc. I'll post mine when I'm done creating it !! Nisi32132


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Posted on Tue, Nov 27, 2007 21:09

mine would be Art: trusting wears his heart on his sleeve.tries to see good even the most mean and Cruel people. he is willing to help any one, even those who have did him wrong and have caused Injury to him. And Balendor the cynic who sees every one as a potential adversary who can be cold and seemingly uncaring.he feels those who have hurt him should get the Karma the deserve even if they have learned the error of their ways, and are trying to make amends.Most of the Time Arty wins


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Posted on Thu, Oct 18, 2007 12:47

I agree with all of you, there is "just is" I believe and like the "bad" side of me. It's the side that balances the "good" side. We have to have balance in like, well I do. I don't always think it's 50/50 though. In me there has never been 50/50. The balance has fluctuated depending on the need I suppose. I can be very very very bad (heheheh) I can be pure evil, oh my stand back. I can be sweet, sympathetic and all of that also. I work hard to be more positive because I came from a very negative household. It was a chore, at first, to work out of that instant negative, knee jerk, reaction. It's been an interesting challenge and one that I won after 20 years. So Blue I totally understand where you're coming from. I step back, only to visit, once in awhile just to reaffirm my marvelous progress. Nisi32132


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Posted on Wed, Oct 17, 2007 18:29

Blue, I hear the "just is" loud and clear and I think that is a very healthy place to be. A lot of things about ourselves "just are". Maybe the roots lie buried way back in our past or maybe they are tendancies at a genetic level, who knows. The people that I have seen who have been most successful with self acceptance are the ones who can say "just is" and leave it there. In some way it's similar to living in the moment. We accept the past, but we own the fact that we are at this point, not some other. I have a bad habit of fighting the "just is", so I admire you for it! Amy


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Posted on Wed, Oct 17, 2007 04:20

Nat & Cicely - You both write great stories. I've spent many many years trying to reconcile in my mind that the "bad" parts of myself when joined with the good DO make one WHOLE person who is neither good nor bad but just is. And that this is ok. I think if I were to do this little experiement it may put me back where I started. And that is not somewhere I wish to go. But I thank you both for sharing - and Nat, thank you for your creativity.


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Posted on Tue, Oct 16, 2007 23:46

Aight, I'm going to make a minor attempt. Not, perhaps, exactly what you wanted, but a few things that have come to me while musing on this subject. Remember the story "The Lady or the Tiger"? Good, if not, read it. You have to imagine a set of doors. One person is behind each of those doors. You can choose either one, but you only get one. One is always asking questions, and saying "But it SHOULDN'T BE that way!" She doesn't dwell on personal discontent but charges ahead, a bit like Don Quixote. She is gregarious, capricious, creative and messy. Never mind her chronological age, her inner age is somewhere in the teens and you see it in her disregard for conventional fashion and the transparency of the moods on her face. But maybe you chose the other door. This one exudes calm authority. She is capable. She is confident. She has tattoos, but only because the first one made her get them. She knows how the world works and is not suprised by it. Her choices are careful, if a bit uninspired, and she can be harsh and judgmental. Everything about her suggests a measured response to the outside world, from her skirts well below the knee to her stylish-yet-not-too-uncomfortable shoes. Whatever force that broke these 2 apart used the naturally occuring fault lines in her psyche. Fault lines, indeed. The first Amy cannot rid herself of messiness without losing creativity in the bargain. The second is more conventional, but cold and limited. And the choice is yours, reader. Which is which? The angel and the devil.


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Posted on Tue, Oct 16, 2007 19:44

Nat, Your writings are great. It is a pleasure to see someone able to take hold of who they are, their strengths and weaknesses. And without negativity. I, on the other hand, am afraid I'd scare the sh$t out of everyone were I to write about my "other" me...ROFLMAO!!! Just teasing. I just don't have the patience nor perseverance to write it down. Although it is similar to thoughts and ideas that I explore when journaling or when I'm on a mental meandering.


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Posted on Tue, Oct 16, 2007 17:25

Part Two: Nat gives in and walks along the yellow brick road scuffing her feet as she walks slowly behind them. This is an open air market, flea market fashion. Tan is very enthused by the kiosks and the different wares of the venders. She wanders pulling Nat with her as they hold hands. The wizard seems to take great delight in watching them roam about the market. Tan finds a vender with all sorts of old thing and she starts to rummage through the table looking at each thing. Nat, on the other hand, stands back and watches Tan, secretly wishing she could muster the abandon of Tan. Nat begins to watch closely, as if she is solving a problem, she watches how Tan handles a situation of bargaining with the vender for a better price on an item that seems worthless. Tan manages to get her price, pulls the coins out of her pocket to pay for the item. Nat was intrigued at Tans ability and wondered why she could not do such things. Nat wanted to feel free and unafraid as Tan was, she wanted to be more carefree. Nat shared her desire with Tan; Tan was excited and willing to show Nat how to break free of her self imposed bondage with fear. Tan spied a vender with lovely dresses, dragging Nat over with her they started to look through the dresses. Tan found one, a lovely dress, rose colored with a lovely V neckline. Nat could not find any that she thought she could wear. As Tan and Nat were the same dress size Tan was able to find another dress, identical to hers, in soft lavender for Nat and brought it over to her. Nat thought OH MY I could never wear that!! Tan asked why not? Nat said that she thought everyone would laugh at her. Tan talked Nat into trying it on, telling her that some of her fears would fall away if she ?tried on? a new outlook and wore this dress to portray the outer change as the inner change was taking place. Nat thought about that for awhile and it made sense to her. So she tried on the dress and it felt uncomfortable at first as it was n


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Posted on Tue, Oct 16, 2007 17:24

Here is part one: I see the temptation of stepping over the threshold of the looking glass, the babbling brook, the song of the birds, and the softness of the wind rustling the leaves on the tree just beyond my sight. The vision of my two selves is inviting; I step over the threshold, curiosity getting the better of me. I step into a soft world, a world lined with a yellow brick road. Sitting on lollipop chairs are my twins, Nat and Tan. Nat is dressed in black slacks and lavender blouse, her hair is long and flows down past her shoulders. She is a larger lady, carrying herself with style. Her nails are done; make up is light and natural. Her eyes stand out the most; they are hazel and sparkling in the sunshine. Nat seems to be stiff in her stature as she sits on the lollipop chair. Tan is dressed in a white dress, longish flowing down to her ankles. Her hair is curly and bouncy. She is also a larger lady; although her nails are not done they are clean in appearance. She is sitting in a more relaxed stature and seems to be unafraid of anything that might come barreling at her. Tan has a rather mischievous twinkle in her eye. I watch the two of them with great interest to see what they are waiting for and what they will do next. Suddenly I see someone meandering on the yellow brick road towards them. It?s the wizard himself! Nat stands up and says hello to the wizard and asks how his day is going so far. Tan gets up and wants to know where the wizard is going today. The wizard said he was going to the market and asked if they both would like to come along. Nat was not sure she should take the offer, was it genuine? Tan on the other hand said YES, that sounds like great fun lets get a move on and encourages Nat to come along. Tan is jumping about, almost like a cheer leader, telling Nat to get off her bottom and come to the market with them.


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Posted on Tue, Oct 16, 2007 08:11

Ni, Imma put a preliminary post up here. I am still struggling with whether or not to attempt your challenge. I kinda don't wanna. While I could easily give you a shopping list of my faults, I'm not sure that I want to personify them, and fairly sure that I don't want to share them. In short, I don't want to look "bad" and I fear that this is what would happen. Fearfully yers, Amy


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