I was reading a comment from naturalremedy about the nine year old girl that thinks she's fat. I think it's sad too. I have been plus size since the third grade. I was taunted to the point that I felt as though I weighed nearly 400 lbs. In high school I was about 180 and almost 5'10. Not skinny but not hideously fat and undatable like I felt. Funny thing was the first non-high school guy to really get to know me...fell in love with me. I was amazed beyond words. We got married. We had two kids. My weight went up and down and it was never an issue for him. Not one derogatory comment about my weight. Not one time acting embarrassed of me. My last relationship was worse. He said it didn't matter to him that I'm fat. I was always made to feel that his family thought I wasn't good enough for him though because of my weight. Okay then there is Hollywood...lets talk about that. There was one movie where a (then) plus size Ricky Lake dated a handsome guy. Bridget Jones doesn't count because 1. Renee is anorexic the rest of the time. 2. Hugh Grant? Ick! So yes I'd like to see a movie where a plus size....like size 20...woman gets...say Orlando Bloom. Not Gwyneth Paltrow in a fat suit either. Silence of the Lambs should be destroyed because "great big fat girls" in the movie were revealed to be all of a size 14! I would LOVE to be a size 14. So instead of three movie com
The Alanis Morriset song is so true. For every time I've fallen flat on my face, every diet I've ever failed, and every relationship gone down the tubes I've learned something. If nothing else I've learned to laugh. I mean sometimes you can only do one of two things laugh or cry. So I laugh it off, pick myself up, and keep going. So far so good on the Trimspa. I don't just take the pills I'm careful about what I eat. I'm opting for lots of fruits, veggies, whole grains, and lean meat. I've completely stopped eating chocolate and so far I haven't had problems with the caffeine in the pills. I weigh every day (which some say not to do but it helps me) I accept that if I'm well hydrated I'll weigh more so I don't freak out if the scale fluctuates. So far I haven't seen a change in what I weigh but I feel like things are fitting better. Oh and I was reading the possible side effects on Cortislim. Hair loss, facial hair growth, acne..... So I'm thinking that will be sexy. A skinny, balding woman with zits and a beard. Watch out men! I think I'll skip that one. Some things are worse than being heavy ;)
I know this woman and she is not at all nice. She's thin and pretty but that's about it. She has the nicest boyfriend in the world and she treats him like crap. Me on the other hand I treated my last guy really well and he dropped me like a bad habit. I mean shouldn't the nice people find nice people? It would make sense. I have a friend that is getting out of a bad marriage. She says she always finds rotten guys because she doesn't think she deserves to be treated better. I'm just thinking that nobody really deserves to be treated poorly. I guess a lot of times I'm happy to be single because it's better than being in another bad relationship.
Well it's been the case for a long time that though I see nothing wrong with being plus size I am heavier than I want to be. I've decided to try Trim spa. At first I was apprehensive because it contains caffeine and I normally try to avoid caffeine. Thus far I haven't been having problems with it. This is day two. I feel okay. Maybe a little tired. I do like it that I'm hungry a lot less. It makes it easier to make good choices when I do eat. I'm trying to be careful about what I eat. I do a lot of walking at work. Up to 3 miles a day. So I'm not really worried about exercise just yet. I've also been drinking lots of water. It's very helpful. Actually now when I'm hungry drinking water makes me feel full for a while. That never happens when I'm not on diet pills. Then I just feel sick.
I'm short on time but so happy that they have blogs here now! It's so hard to tell about yourself in the confined space of a the profile and I think this will give us all more insight into one another so kudos to large friends!
You know the other day I was thinking that I could use another blog. I have one that's strictly about my house building experience which isn't much thus far but still. I'd like to talk about other things too and this is a proper outlet for such things. I'm bored with my job. I like it pretty much and it pays well but it's been slow lately. I *hate* the projects my manger comes up with which is moving stuff from one place to another only to move it back in a couple of weeks. A monkey could do it and probably enjoy it more. So I've been job hunting and I applied for a really good one but haven't heard anything either way on it. Patience isn't my strong suit. I'm trying really hard to keep my hopes up though and not think negative thoughts. My best friend says thinking negatively about it is the best way not to get the job. I'm also looking for another place to live. The place where I'm at is okay. The neighbors are quiet. Still I want to be closer to my building project. Also closer to my sitter. With gas prices the way they are driving fifty miles round trip a day is costly. So that's where I'm at. Job hunting, rental hunting, waiting to start building my house, and waiting to hear on a better job. I feel like I'm in limbo sort of...looking, waiting, and hoping.