Blog description:Okay, so I might be a little naive or perhaps just confused. Why is it so hard to meet people that you like and get along with? I'm a shy person when in real life and first getting to know people. I find the internet allows my true personality to show. I haven't had that much luck meeting people in my area, or anywhere. I'm wondering if someone can give advice. I grew up an Army brat, constantly moving from...
My blog address: http://LargeFriends.com/blog/whitetexasrose
I've seen the responses to several blogs including my own and I know that the truth will be told about all things. That is a good thing and it helps to know that there are people who are willing to be honest. When I meet people, I am very honest. Sometimes, perhaps a little too blunt. I am not afraid to tell them that I am a large girl. I have been since I was 7. I'm not lazy. I'm trying to lose weight but its a long ...hard... painful process. I've met several...odd...characters and while I want to meet people, i'm starting to think I was born several decades late for my own personal values and wants. This blog isn't meant to upset anyone and I'm sorry if it does. I'm just trying to figure out a few things and thought that my new found friends at LF could help. Does it make me a bad person to get defensive when people start judging because of my weight? Is it stupid to be a bigger person and want someone that is actually relatively normal? I actually had one guy tell me that I shouldn't be "picky" because of my weight. Why can't I?
Ok, so I'm a big woman. I have no qualms admitting it. When I first joined this site, I was estatic to find a place where I could belong. I looked at over 200 profiles and e-mailed or winked people. Responses: ignore, told I'm too big for them, not their type, or only interested in super fast or casual relationships. I just wonder why most guys leave it up to the woman to contact them. It makes me feel like I am super idiotic. Why spend the time to look up the men when they won't do the same for me? Anyway, I'm just ranting but does anyone feel this way?
So I have been talking to several different people. I'm creating several great friendships. I am wondering at a question one of them brought up to me. "How do you define a relationship". If you were a person who had never been in a relationship, what would you use as a definition? What would you want, look for, or how would you be successful? I'm still mulling these questions over but its an interesting question.
OK, so here I am writing this blog and all I can think of is "is finding someone like me even truly possible?" I read urban dictionary's definition of "BBW" yesterday and cried so hard it wasn't even funny. Don't read it. It won't help self esteem at all. Why is it that people don't look at bigger people as actually human but rather as "they" or "it". I'm still human. I have feelings, needs, and wants. How do you find a guy that is willing to do that and not be completely horrible or out of the running? *sigh* i know I'm probably just complaining but does anyone in this world feel like this?