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Posted on Sat, Apr 24, 2010 06:30

Well a lot has changed since my last post. It's been, what? 4 years! lol Wow... well I'm single again... actually I have been single for almost a year now. (even though at some points I said I wasn't) She stopped talking to me. Not because she was mad at me. Not because she was falling out of love with me. And not even because she was cheating on me. But because she 'forgot' to talk to me... for over a month... W? T? F? I told her that since we live 1500 mile apart right now (her in NY going to school & me here struggling to find a job) if we don't communicate we literally don't have a relationship. And do you know what she said back? ... Nothing. Yet. That was a week ago. I told her I'm not going to wait any more. I'm 27 (going to be 28 in moth) and I want a relationship with someone who remembers me after they say they want to have a family with me... It's just... I mean I'm just so... confused/frustrated/upset/numb/blank/angry/disappointed/lonely/and, strangely, ready to move on. I guess I have been ready for a while now and didn't really know it. So for now I'll just take a deep breath and keep putting one foot in front of the other.

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We rock at dawn on the front line like a bolt right out of the blue! The sky's alight with the guitar bite, heads will roll and rock tonight!! For those about to rock, we salute you!!! \m/ ~____~ \m/

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Posted on Mon, Apr 26, 2010 22:30

Well welcome back to the blogs Mike . Ive got to agree with thease two wise and lovely ladies. You have poured you heart and soul in to the relation ship and gave you whole being .Yet I must sadly most likely she has moved on.I know It is a kick in the groin and she is probially having a great time at you expense. She probially expects you to crumble in to a soggy blubbering mess . However , dont give her that power over you . Buddy you rise up , dust you self off , and get back on that dating horse !I've been there . The best revenge in life is to bind you wounds , get your gear squared away and drive on! All the while their life circles the clay fixture in the bathroom.


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Posted on Mon, Apr 26, 2010 13:54

Quoting Babycakes63

Hang in there Mike! I do know how hard LD relationships are. And you do realize that she is probably lying about finding someone... right? If she were in love, she would not "forget" to write. Being a lonely person does not give others the right to walk all over you though. keep on blogging! Make new friends, forget her and her rudeness and enjoy being single again! Elaine


Thank you. I have one last chance to finely talk to her and ask her why... (yes she actually e-mailed me back) I don't know how it will go... I don't know how I want it to go...


We rock at dawn on the front line like a bolt right out of the blue! The sky's alight with the guitar bite, heads will roll and rock tonight!! For those about to rock, we salute you!!! \m/ ~____~ \m/

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Posted on Sun, Apr 25, 2010 20:21

Come, hold hands with me. We are now friends in this cruel, confusing world. I will walk with you for a while, if you let me. We both are just walking out of a bad deal and though I will offer you no advise and no condolences, I offer you my ear, my smile and my tears of compassion. I will listen and not pretend to know your pain, you have a friend in me... and a lot of others here. Just watch.


In your rocking-chair, by your window dreaming, shall you long, alone. In your rocking-chair, by your window, shall you dream such happiness as you may never feel. –Theodore Dreiser

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Posted on Sun, Apr 25, 2010 06:18

Hang in there Mike! I do know how hard LD relationships are. And you do realize that she is probably lying about finding someone... right? If she were in love, she would not "forget" to write. Being a lonely person does not give others the right to walk all over you though. keep on blogging! Make new friends, forget her and her rudeness and enjoy being single again! Elaine


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