Desolation
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09/15/09
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Some of you have asked fo me to write some poetry so here for you parusal is one tonight I quickly penned .
As I stand alone on the plains of love which are desolate and barren from life's battle field. I await my fate. I have tried to follow the sirens sweet song of love. For many days I have traveled at times hearing its call as loud as thunder and at times soft as the call of the Nightingale.I can go no farther, lest I stumble and fall in to the great depths hidden by the inky blackness. Yet the Harpies of fate follow me to visit their worst on me if I do not. Try I must. The inky black darkness slowly encompasses me and all that I see me like a constrictor crushes its prey. I must go on yet doing so would seal my fate. I stand awaiting the new light and fresh hope to renew my journey. My journey is to find and answer the sirens beckoning call of love. Half seen horrid hideous things and yet unseen things in the dark seek to claw at me feverishly with their cold steely talcons. Their frantic actions are with with the sole purpose of wresting from my body all hope. The Banshee's foul winds of despair cry out in the night air. Her Mournful cry seeking to drown out and dash all hope of hearing the sirens sweet call of hope. And yet faintly over the banshee's horrid call, I can almost hear it now. She cries out in a sweet voice hold on my love for soon, we will be not separated by this vast wilderness. Soon we fill find a way out of this desolation.So that together we can fill our cups in the fountain of happiness and love and never grow thirsty. Hold on my love! Have faith soon the howling winds and the storms of despair shall lose their might and fade. Have faith soon the dawn shall come. Follow you hearts call soon you shall see the light to guide you to me. Soon the mournful cry of the loon shall be one of joy. Hearing this I walk on, As the veil is lifted from me by her voice. I now can clearly see! There is hope I must go on!!
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Insensative ad from PETA
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08/19/09
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Well looks like large women are being attacked by yet a nother Insensative group that claims to be good for everyone. The group I speak of is PETA. PETA is running an ad campain in Florida with a slogan of "Save the whales Lose the blubber: go Vegetarian. The ad shows a beach with a BBW in a red with white polka dots Bikini from behind. Putting it politely she is drawn with extemely ample back jelly rolls and large wadles under her arms. To me this Offensive and insensative of this group. In their litaure they infer that obese people are this way Solely because of eating meat. Their litature also infers that obease people will Majically lose all their weight by going vegetarian. Hey Peta , if you are eating all this fiber why are you so full of it??? I didn't climb to the top of the food chain to become a Vegetarian!
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"More To Love " show
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08/05/09
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Has any body seen the new Fox show "More To love"? I have to say I applaud them trying to be fair . However I feel the made several of the contestants last night look like Stark raving bundle of emotions.I hope the producers have counseling for the ladies that have got booted of. Because I feel the producers preyed upon the ladies insecurities for pure entertainment. Has any else seen the show and feel the same way? What do you think?
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Things I can do a one year anniversary
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07/18/09
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In response to a request here is a few things I can do now. Go to the beach and NOT have Marine Mammal Rescue try to put me back in the water.Buckle a seatbelt with out holding my breath.See my feet with out,a digital camera,or sitting in a chair.Not having to go to "Omar's",the tentmakers store for my clothes.Being able to walk in to a clothing store and buy something off the rack easily.Sit in a chair, and get up with it NOT following me when I stand up.Walk in to a restraunt with Grand buffet and walk away full and satified with one trip to it. Walk down the candy isle and not buy any thing. Have a portrait taken and not have the photgapher have to use a Wide Angle Lens.Being able to walk a mile with out chuffing like A Steam engine. Being able to be relaxingly floating in a pool and not have the Medical Examiner try to put you in a Magnum zip lock baggie.
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Cheating?
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07/10/09
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After seeing a recent post of some one whinieing about the Ladies here on this site not web camming and other posts from months ago previous.I have reveiwed several simmiular profiles here on this site to better understand the posters. In their profiles they are Stating what they wanted.HOWEVER they say they are Married yet they are looking for DATING,LONG-TERM / SERIOUS RELATIOSHIP, CASUAL AND INTIMATE .I may not be the most Intelligent person but is this not cheating? I mean, you may Call me a Little old fashioned. But does not this type of behavior by some here on this site seem that person who states that they are married are cheating?,Yet state are looking for DATING,LONG-TERM / SERIOUS RELATIOSHIP, CASUAL AND INTIMATE Are they not Cheating on their Spouse by doing so? Does not that Behavior not have possible serious and potentially Deadly side effects effects,as recent national news stories have shown. And yet they wonder Why they are treated like the peverbial "Baby Ruth" floating in the pool.I have to Say Personally,If you are Married and are so unhappy that you have to go outside your marriage for you supposed needs . Why not not get a divorce and not have to worry about getting caught cheating and avoid potential of needing plastic surgury or other operations to reattach body parts or plug up extra holes that you may get from your Spouse that you cheated on. Just my .2Cnts
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Things I Miss A One Year Anniversary
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07/09/09
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For some of you who don't know know me,I'll explain a little over a year ago I had lap band surgury. I have lost over 100+ pounds Since then, I'de like to tell others a Few things that I Really miss when I was over 450 pounds.The warm fuzzy feeling you sometimes get when you sit down in a chair and you realize you are locked in by your thunder thighs. The fun feeling when you stand up and the chair follows you.The fun feeling as you bend over to pick up something and get a sudden breeze and realise that the trousers you HAD on have developed a "Split" personality. The Joy of having to shop for two weeks to find a belt that might fit around you waist,Even if only on the first notch. The joyful feeling of spending 10 to 15 dollars more for your clothes. Even if they last only half as long.The joys of All the "Wonderfully" in fashion fabrics that the clotheries dump on you just because you have to cover your body. The joy of having little kids run up to you and poke you in you belly and get mad because you dont giggle like the Pilsbury Doughboy. those are a just a few of wonderful the things I miss when I was Obese.
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What's you comfort range?
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04/19/09
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A recent wink from someone got me to?pondering what is my comfort range.As some of you know I am? in my late 40's (46 to be exact) .Well the other day I received a wink from a young lady? who who was barely 19.Hey, I have a daughter two years older than that.I've got clothes older than that also! How far is too much of an age spread?difference? What is your comfort? level? For me? 10-15 years max either way? is what I had held so far. Am I being "old fashioned ? If I was to date a lady that young I'de fel like I was "robbing the cradle" or I am being?? a fuddy duddy. Conversely If I was dating a lady that was? 20 older than me? some folks would feel I was seeing her for reasons other than love .Am I being a"Square"?
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Lapband update #7
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03/10/09
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Several folks have asked for a Lap Band update so here it is.For those new to the site Ill give you a breif summary. In September 97 I lost my job I was at 450 in weight and miserable. After extreme soul searching I decided to take the time to get back to try to get the weight reduction surgury.I had tried twice several years before before once through the VA ( Total Pooch Party) and once though a major hospital that advertises weight reduction surgury here in my area lot. Both tries were a bust. So after serious thinking I finally went to another info session for the surgury after some disscusion was able to get the date for the consult . I was a mess,with me being almost 44, (at the time) 5'11 BMI over 62 a waist of 60+. weight over at 450 pounds . I could not walk a block before I was huffing and chuffing like a old wornout steam locomitive. I could not bend over to tie my shoes. I had no energy. I felt like the Stay Puff Marshmallow man. Now I am down to a size 54 waist , weight is down to 350 . I have alot more energy. I am now able to move a lot easier.(joints dont hurt as much ) Even getting a few cat calls from the ladies ( Thanks ladies my ego needed that!!!) My self immage has improved imensely (no pun intended). I can say the surgury was Not the Total answer. But a component of a multi layerd approach. By limiting the amout I can eat at one time. I am forced to make better food choices. Also I have to focus , and fix those past bad habbits that got me to this point.(myself I am a emotionial eater, and yes a sugar junkie, and was addicted to fried foods if you could fry it I did.) However those days are behind me( unless I fall of the wagon. ) Pray to god that I dont . I can say to those who are truely struggle with morbid obesity is you have to LOVE your self enough to change what is inside you. Change the self loathing of your body, to loving your body,and trhe person inside of you .But also making healthy choices to better support the new you you want to become. Hey It took many years of food abuse to get this way. So through years of hard work YOU CAN become the person inside and out you want to be!! I am not done on my journey to the perfection but . I have just begun. If I never start ,Will I be any closer in one year, or two , or three?
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Economically Dyslectic
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01/16/09
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As some of you remember may remember September 2007 I lost my job. I have without a job since. Now It seems that Since I am a lefty , I tend to do every thing backward. So now while most companies are laying off I found a job this week that the possabilities of a lay off are very slim . So I guess 2009 will be a good year for me after all. Now that I have already fulfilled on of my goals for the new year. I just have 2 more to get Ready to take off my list. One of them I know I'll will already meet soon . Lose more weight. But the one I hope really hope that I hope I get to remove Is to find A woman partner. Possiblly get to know really well. and may be start a life together.
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Greetings to all
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12/24/08
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Merry Christmas to All. May the Holidays bring you joy and happiness now and for the comming New Year. Here is a Big hug for those who Have no one to lean on. I raise my glass to toast: "May old freinds,new freinds gathered together with you ,remember those be only absent in presence not spirit!"
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My New Year Resolutions
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12/16/08
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My New Years resaloutions in no particular order are...1] To loose a nother 65 pounds by next December, [2]To find a new job
( being Out of work and broke Bites),[3] To find a special Lady to spend time with(tired of being alone!!!)[4]To get a whole new wardrobe. (Because if I lose another 65 pounds with the previous 60+ pound loss this year. nothing will fit, Nothing all ready fits(too lose allready )[5]Make new freinds and have a social life!!
So now that you know mine let me hear yours.
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Lapband update # 6
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12/16/08
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Howdy all. For those folks here who may have read my previous posts on this subject. bear with me. As of October of last year 2007 I was at or around 450 pounds through the next few months I have traveled on the journey to loose my self .Or rather I say loose half of me. Here is a update... as of last Wensday I have lost a rough total of over 70 pounds. The reason is it a rough total is I was so large the doctor's scale was too small I could not get a accurate weight. I figure I was around 440 pounds. Now through Diet, Exersize and the band I have gotten down to 363.4 at the last weighin. For those who are weighing the optiom of having surgury. all I can say that It is not a "majical cure" there are life style changes that must be takin in account. With the lapband you must Chew your food Very, Very well, or risk spending several hours in extreme Discomfort. when the stomach opening gets blocked. One must take their time and eat very slowly. A cheese sandwich that took only a minute to eat, Before the band takes around 20 minutes to eat. You might ask why if all the hassel did I do the lapband All I can say is that now I can see my feet with out leaning out over a vast expanse of belly. Also now I can find clothes that half way fit with out using several acres of fabric to make the garment.Plus when I find the right Lady I might have a chance of catching her if she runs. LOL.
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Frugal Holidays
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11/21/08
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With the Economic uneasiness of the past few months has caused me to ponder many things.I have come to the conclusion .That most of the things"we" get from others at the holidays time is all commercial Hype and you spend way too much time and money getting those things.Only to have them get relegated to the bottom of the closet because the really got tired of it or the refuse bin because it broke only after two days. As some of you know I have been out of work for over a year. Christmas was good last year every one got things , but with a catch I got them things that they really could use. Spending less than 20 dollars each I made up Sewing kits for each of the folks on my list. You get 1 spool of thread in black, white ,tan,green, blue and green. Along with that you get several packages of assorted buttons and a package of needles and a small case to store it in. To make a travel size case get a smaller storage box and use bobbins of thread instead of the larger spools.Or if you can bake something for your friends instead of buying it. Every body has something yummy that they can bake and the cost will be a lot less and those who get the items you bake should be just as happy or more that you actually took the time to personally make something for them.
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"IKE" and afterwards
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09/14/08
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For those who haven't been keeping up with the news lately Texans and our Cajun neighbors to the east this weekend got slammed hard by Hurricane "IKE" Although ( he) "IKE" was listed as a Category 2 hurricane He was one mile shy of being a Cat.3 hurricane.Where I am I only suffered 1 felled oak tree and a few broken branches on other trees . Although the worst was not having power since 2AM Saturday till Sunday around 10Am .I quess I am lucky no major holes in my body ,(except for where the chainsaw cut through my jeans leg . leaving two shallow, 2 inch cuts in my knee, I now have power so the things that I need are up and running(AIR CONDITIONING!!!) and the well for water. The news outlets are saying that a lot of other areas are still without power. Roughly 1.89 million electric customers ( roughly 4 million people )are without power. So keep them and the relief workers in your prayers.
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Lap Band Update# 4
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08/30/08
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For those who have followed my progress with the lap band success's and upsets. Here is a update.In my last blog Lap band #3. I left off with the doctor not able to find the fill port after 20 times with a 14 gage Needle 4 1/2 long and being wiggled around . the doctor stopped and tells ,me I have to get X-rays to see if the port has flipped over. I went to the local hospital nearby.(All I can say is that they have a nice looking big building and not much else good about this hospital.) Well after 300 dollars of inconclusive X-Rays (I really think the tech was a Student because they had to take about 15 shots and they still could not tell if the port had flipped)Well about 3 weeks later. Friday I Had to set up a Fluoroscope session with the hospital that did the Lap band(different hospital) with in 30 minutes they had the located the band, and the doctor was able to fill it to get the band adjusted. Only problem is I think the doctor may have adjusted it too far in.Today was the first day after the adjustment.It did not go well. For those who have the band know what fun it is when the food gets where it wont go down or up. After 3 hours Finally got relief. after had talked to a man about a BUICK.Now I am feeling a little better. All this because of a piece of food the size of your thumb nail.
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