Friends,
The reality has finally set in. Single parenting is tough. Doing it while committing to the Christian walk while doing so is tougher.
I have been single now for 9 years, by choice, and only recently have I considered dating. I don't know how committed to 'walking the walk' any of you are, but hopefully you can understand how daunting that is.
Being divorced, you most likely enjoyed/relished/cherished the physical intimacy that went along with being married, just as God intended. The truth is, I was not Christian when I was married, and only became Christian after a perilous separation and divorce.
Now that I am Christian, and never having dated with this new set of boundaries, it's more than a little... frightening.
I know my son is watching, and if I am going to expect him to believe what I have taught him about our Christian values, I have to hold true all the way. But 'old me' comes up and keeps reminding how much easier it used to be.
Yes, it's scary. Yes, I know that 99.99% of the people that view my profile are more than likely to close my profile immediately when they catch wind that I'm not for sale -- or sample.
But as my son said tonight (took my breath away), "Trust God, Mom. His timing is perfect. Never late, never early. He'll bring the right one to you." Wow.
Snif....He is one amazing kid.\
Christian parents, if there is even one other of you out there, be encouraged. This is not imaginary, this is not play, and when you feel tempted to compromise, DO NOT LOSE HEART. The boundaries we're given (aka the fence around His yard) are more for our own protection (emotionally, physically, psychologically and relationally) than anything else. If we stay 'in the yard', we can certainly trust in His protction, guidance, and reward.
Keep in the yard, friends.
And God bless.
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